Grateful

This year I could focus on the bad or I could focus on the good I've had my fair share of both in my life this year. The beginning of the year started with a phone call/text about 11:45p.m NYE Grandpa died shortly the next a.m I've had B.S from the people I thought were in my corner but more then anything I found out my why's my ups my downfalls my hardness on myself I am in love and it drives me wild. I am scared of it at moments but I am thrilled by it as well. Feels amazing Believe I'm going to spoil my Granddaughter something crazy and put all my energy into her. I am in the beginning of my own family, I pray for clarity and that I remain open minded, and don't be one of them people who is so .... well not sure the word I am looking for but bitter about new beginnings would be as close to what I mean that I could say. I am thankful for breath for life for smiles for being able to be surprised and happy. I love you life I am coming home to enjoy this time today and now