Felt a little inspired talking about music the passed few days... 

Hmm

Do you know the words that I sing??

 

There is someone out there for me
Can you tell me his name? 
How does he laugh? How does he cry? 
What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I’m here? 
Where are you??  -   “Where Are You” - unknown

You yearn for someone not because you want to be complete but because you want to add more color to your life. That person must not necessarily break through your schedule but inspire you to manage your time instead. You see, it is not a matter of distance and time. It is more like a relationship in a higher level.

It is smiling alone every once in a while, knowing that somewhere, somehow, someone smiles at the thought of you too.

 Dec 23, 2011 orig post date

Protect yourself from abuse

I hope passing along information helps at least one person. Even if me one day.... If you are - or suspect you are - in an abusive relationship, there are steps you can take to help ensure your safety, says McMahon. In a heated situation, stay away from the kitchen - reportedly one of the most common places for domestic violence - where there are too many potential weapons. Also avoid any small rooms, such as bathrooms or closets, where you can be trapped. Call 911 as soon as possible. Get medical help as soon as possible if you've been hit. Take photos of any injuries to yourself or your children. Try to keep a phone with you at all times, and memorize emergency phone numbers (such as the National Domestic Violence Hotline, 1-800-799-SAFE). Set up a system with a trusted neighbor - such as flashing your porch lights on and off - to alert her that you're in danger and you want her to call the police. Keep a small suitcase packed for yourself and your children, with key documents like your Social Security card, health insurance card and driver's license. If you're being stalked, get an unlisted phone number, screen all your calls, and frequently change your driving times, routes and other daily habits. Alert the security officer at your workplace if you think you're in danger. Finally, says McMahon, pay attention to your instincts. "If you're feeling bad about the relationship - even if you don't know why - don't ignore it. Listen to your gut." Domestic Violence and Abuse: The Facts If you wonder whether domestic violence is really a problem, consider these numbers. • Battering. About 572,000 assaults by intimate partners are officially reported each year, and at least 170,000 of these assaults require hospitalization, emergency room care or a doctor's care. • Sexual assault. Every year about 132,000 women in the United States report rape or attempted rape - and more than half of them knew their attackers. Domestic violence experts estimate that many more women are raped but don't report it. Every year, 1.2 million women are forcibly raped by their current or former male partners, some more than once, according to the National Association of Women. • Death. Every day 4 women die in the United States as a result of domestic violence at the hands of their husbands or partners. The number of women who have been murdered by domestic violence is greater than the number of soldiers killed in the Vietnam War. Domestic violence is a grim reality, but you can help protect yourself by watching for early signs of abuse and getting out of an abusive relationship as quickly as possible

Sometimes your hurt feelings hurt others

Sometimes I think we forget that we meaning you and I or we all in the world have the choice to deal with our hurt and our feelings our own way but sometimes you forget that you being hurt or being down could hurt someone else. Kind of like a hurt puppy; you'd want to fix it. Well if someone loves you then they will want to fix you. We all know we can only fix ourselves so be whole be you so that way the ones you love don't get hurt thinking they don't make you happy enough in this life.

I need to remember that other's words don't define me! I am who I am and shouldn't feel compelled to say Sorry about that!

True happiness emanates from self-esteem, which is the cornerstone of successful relationships, work, and life. Self-esteem reflects how you treat and talk to yourself. If you’re a perfectionist, deep down you may not think you or your accomplishments are good enough. Although self-esteem can fluctuate with life’s ups and downs, high self-esteem helps you return to feeling okay. You don’t blame yourself or take others’ opinions personally. Healthy self-esteem allows you to honor and trust yourself, to meet your needs, and to live authentically in accordance with your values and feelings.

a Pen and Paper

Do you realize how beautiful it is to have a pen and paper?

Even if you feel no one listens to you even if you feel that you can read to someone and they would just fall asleep...

At least if you have your pen and paper you have freedom.

The freedom to talk to speak to yell to cry to feel to smile to laugh and it can bring you peace... it brings you joy!

a Pen and Paper

Oh joy it's better then any little 'ol toy!

I still remember sitting in my window seal legs up paper on my lap ..the pen gracing those pages as my radio blared the latest music. Oldies of course :-)

Those days seem so far away but for a moment as I write I can feel that link ... the link between me and that little girl. I was so young precious and had the biggest imagination - full of hope big dreams and still to this day I find myself having that big 'ol heart believing the best in everything ... in everyone.

Stand up to Manipulators

A person with successful boundaries has to stand up to manipulators. Manipulators are often charming people, but their intent is to produce enough guilt with their accusations and threats that we back off. They say things like, "If you loved me you wouldn't do that", "That's not very Christian", "You are really selfish". What are some of the things manipulators have said to you to get you to back off?

It’s you. You’re the one i talk about all the time, and the one. I can’t stop thinking about. The one that can make me laugh when i don’t even want to smile. The one that can make me feel better in 2.2 seconds. It’s you that I’m crazy about.

The ache in my heart

Who was i?
Was i just another memory to forget?….
Though I know I’m just a memory
like the end to one of your stories
but to me you are the one i love
I love until the end…

So I come before you to ask you;
why.... why do these things happen? 
Why must I understand and be ok?

Shall I say why should I be forgiving? 

Why should I be understanding?

Shall I feel walked all over and allow 
this feeling to take me over?

You gave your only Son for our sin
and I am trying to be understanding 
to the fact that this isn't your doing...

I am having a hard time wondering how 
I will explain what I know to someone 
else when I don't know how to explain 
it to myself. 

You can know something but dis-regard 
it in a moment when it makes your heart burn....
I feel as though my Soul has been taken from 
me... I feel as though my body is not my own...

I feel as though my life belongs to something
someone... else not of good but of evil as I 
don't get how something so bad can happen...

Please help me get some understanding...

I need understanding ...

I want a new life a new way a new view a 
new anything so I don't feel or have to feel
what I feel...

If I've been through it all and then I have to 
 face my worse fear ... I just want to ...
want to disapear as though I never existed at 
all!

I pray for strength I pray for understanding
I pray for the heart of yours... I pray for a 
day of happiness to stay... there must be a way.

Just come to me in my dreams so I can 
understand this land that I am to see one day...

I am going to lay down and try not to frown 
I am going to lay down and try not to drown. 

I want to believe in a better way a much 
better day and life of love and beauty 
a life of no hurt no dirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need so much right now ....

I never need anything but I know 
that right now I need you! I need you
but more then that I want you!

I want my faith to overcome my 
mind and my soul ... let's roll 
can we? Can I be selfish and 
ask for you to come to me above
all else before anyone before I 
walk away? I can't cry...

My eyes are becoming dry...

My heart hurts....

Dear God ... i need u... >m

Ignore me if you must

Acknowledge me now, or lose me forever.

Falling

I believe I'm falling... and I believe you may be falling with me....

I'm feeling very inspired, today is the beginning of the rest of my life! Love you all :)

I am perfectly imperfect, beautiful in my flaws, sure of my insecurities, absolute chaos..a beautiful disaster :D

Character is who you are when no one else is watching.

is feeling on top of the world today! Anyone want a hand up here, The view is amazing and There's plenty of room!?!

I'm no better or worse than you...no matter how big or small sin is sin...I'm just saved by God's wonderful Grace. Thank you God for your wonderful Mercy!!

Believes that we must let our smiles change the world, but not to let the world change our smiles. It's contagious and infectious, so smile and infect someone!

I believe that it doesn't quite matter who you were a decade ago, a year ago, or even yesterday ... what matters is who you are today, and will be tomorrow!

Each moment in a day, has its own value: Morning brings hope, afternoon brings faith, evening brings love and night brings rest Find them all today.

...If we do not speak it or live it, then others cannot see or hear it! Matthew 5:16 In the same way, let your light shine before men ...

Open your mind, try new things, take some risks you never thought you could, and live life to the fullest. You just might find it was what you needed....

Be who you want to be, not what others want to see. Be true. Be unique. Be free. (:

I'm in need of the breeze hitting her in the face; the ocean waves whispering in her ear and the sand between her toes

Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. "What is it you would let go of today?"

She Who Kneels Before God-Can Stand Before Anyone

Remember, the mind likes to assume it "know what it knows" but often its perceptions are just not accurate. Yet strong judgments are made all the time based on limited information...When we judge someone and then adopt an attitude toward them, that shuts down other possibilities and locks us away from the insight of our hearts...

"A friend loves at all times." -- The Bible: Proverbs 17, 17.

 

Love is a funny thing. you expect it to be easy. you expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. you expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react. You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. you expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans.  

But that’s the thing. love isn’t a plan. it doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. love happens; and it is so incredibly messy.

People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. they can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. it’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. we can’t breathe the same way or function quite right without it.

Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. it’s him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. it isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or pretty things that make your relationship appear more presentable. it’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. it’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you.

We are human beings. We don’t handle one another, and we can’t be handled. we are mutable creatures that need something different everyday. need something more or less to keep us going, to keep us believing that it’s not all for nothing. so no, it’s not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be all right. it’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are.
   
You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, here; do what you will. mash it into mince meat. or forget I ever handed it to you. as long as you have it.

That’s the thing about love. it makes us crazy. it makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. it’s about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. and it’s a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole. -m

And all my life
I’ve prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life
I’ve prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too - kc & jojo

You’re the only person with the ability to make me smile without even trying. I want you to know that I am so very grateful for you. I’m so grateful for all the smiles. You light up my world and show me things I never dreamed I’d see. Thank you for all that you do and thank you for being you.

 

“Your worth does not revolve around what others think, Your worth is what you put in yourself and know in your heart.”

When we begin to help ourselves first, you may feel selfish, but then you can begin to help others. We must first try to heal ourselves in order to realize that we are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for. It is only when we lose part of ourselves that we can realize what we really are. Sometimes it is too late but that teaches us not to dwell on the past rather to learn from the situation and not have any regrets. Although many say ‘think with your head and not the heart,’ I choose to not listen and just follow my heart. That way no matter what the outcome is I know I was true to myself.

 

You have come into my life through a door I was afraid would never be opened again, for many have slammed it on their way out. So please feel free to stay as long as you’d like. But should the time come that you must leave - please, close the door gently as you go.


Actually, I’m a little scared to get close to anyone because everyone that said “I’ll be there”… left.

“The more we start liking somebody, the more we fear losing them. It’s a human tendency because we can’t afford to lose a person chosen among millions.”

“I’ve tried to block your memory to protect me from the pain, pretend I never knew you, and never heard your name. But the walls aren’t strong enough and I fight my tears in vain. The feeling came creeping through and the hurt is still the same. I wish I could forget you, or make you see me now. The pain will ease in time, and though I know it’s over and what we had is gone, the memories will live forever in a corner of my mind.”
She: God after a long time i saw him today, he looks so happy. He didnt noticed me but i saw him smiling, he looks so good and I miss him all over again. I know how i asked you to take care of him, to always make him safe and happy. I know how im asking you to make him feel love and even asked you to bring the right girl for him, someone who can take care of him, someone who will love him.  But why am I feeling this way God? im hurting, i dont understand, i should be happy for him but im not. I feel bad, it shouldn’t be this way

God: i understand, dont worry it is natural to feel that way. You will get better, i promise.

She: but God, Why? I dont like this feelings, it feels like my heart is breaking again… It took me a years to put the pieces back together and i thought im already okay but seeing him again makes it painful again. Why?

God: because you love.

She: Does it really have to hurt? 
 
God: yes....because that is how you will learn. You will be okay, can you please trust me? I am here, i will take that pain away, all you have to do is to let go, really just fully let go…everthing that is in your heart right now, that pain, anger, everything will go away! Trust me, i am here for you. i love you.

 "I remember feeling so hurt so down, I just wanted to crawl into my bed and DIE... I never thought I would get over the pain he caused me. I could have died and felt better then I was feeling because I felt so dead inside. However I can say that God was right and I'm not hurt by this man anymore. I'm finally okay spiritually and understand that I needed to be that hurt and needed to learn from it.”

Broken........

“Broken people produce broken love. Like a shattered glass, love is distorted at every angle, twisted into something that no longer resembles the original image. But God restores our shattered, twisted, distorted images of love, revealing love’s true face. He takes our brokenness and makes us whole.”

The male species

You tell a woman you are truly ready for commitment, pursue her … and then freak out. OR you have past entanglements (like that darn ex), which are really holding you back from being available for a relationship. Women would appreciate it so much more if men could be genuine with themselves and their partners about exactly what they want. ((We don’t want to get invested in you if you aren’t worth the time.))

Momma's Boy

We are happy that you have a great relationship with your mother, but we don’t want to date your mother! Meddling mama’s can be a huge problem in a relationship, and even a deal breaker for many. Guys, it is important to set boundaries with your family and don’t let mom interfere in your life. It’s also important that you strive for balance in your romantic relationships, because women, as a rule, don’t want to play mama. Childish does not equal attractive.

Pain

Have you ever had someone very close to you hurt in front of you. Cry in front of you?

I'm sure we all have at one time or another. In some kind of a way someone has let go in front of you.

What do you do when it's someone you love so much? A family member or someone you care about more then anything?

Seeing them hurt makes you feel like someone is stabbing you in the heart.

I can help many people but when it's someone so close to me I almost feel like I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say.

You feel like your helpless. Tonight when I go to bed I'm going to go into deep prayer. I want to pray for guideance on how to be a great listener and on how to pour out God's love.

There are just some people whom I'd rather never hurt a second a moment in there lives and if I could take that pain and feel it myself instead I would in a heartbeat.