As I look at the calander and see that it's almost May - I reflect on all that I am; all that I've felt; all that I plan to do for those I have lost & those fighting for life at this moment.

The hardest and toughest thing to be in this life-is being YOU-being UNIQUE or simply being-SLOW TO SPEAK or just being; of which your mind and outside opinions of others are continually waring against; is to be your complete self. You cannot be yourself, if you don't know who you are. And you cannot know who you are, if you don't know where you come from. This is our only battle and quest in this life; to find out who we are and where we come from. Survival is just secondary. Go beyond your human knowledge of who you think you are; your life's journey starts from this point. Life is waiting for you to discover the realization of who you are. Start your journey, in search for the truth of you. Don't abandon the search, because the only truth that you need to discover, is the truth of you; that's what that empty void inside of all of us is about. Don't abandon the search of discovering the truth about you. There will be many truths along your path; but there is only one. Don't settle for any other truths until your void is filled. Smile -- It makes a world of difference. Dance -- Who knows when you wont be able to. Cry -- Holding those emotions in is bad for you. Kiss -- Kisses are the most wonderful things in the world. Laugh -- Whats the point in hiding happiness? Frown -- Why not let him know you're unhappy? Apologize -- You don't wanna lose friends. Hug -- There's no better feeling being wrapped up close to someone you love. Live -- because life is everything. - i Found it...Sometimes, in order to become emotionally and mentally strong, you have to be broken down to your weakest point in order to build yourself back up. Not only broken down, but ripped to pieces in order to realize that life is not that fairytale that you grew up wishing upon! Tomorrow is a blank page, just waiting to be filled with your dreams... All you have to do is be yourself and live the story of your own unique life. Be proud. Be confident. And most of all be happy.. My words may not impress you but my actions will.
You've gotta wake up every morning and ask yourself, 'How bad do I want it?' How much work are you willing to put forth for the things and people you want and need in your life? Nothing great comes without effort. But I promise you that if it's something of great meaning in your heart and something you need in your life...EVERY risk, EVERY step and EVERY drop of sweat will be worth it.
Never let your head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve. Find another way. And don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines.
"When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love."As we have woke up to another day God has blessed us with; I wait to find out if a loved one will as well. Truly from the Heart-Ms. Toni - Marsalia

Director's email to me on her submission for publication after our interview:

Ms. Toni- Marsalia- is one of my favorite models to collaborate with because she works to create beautiful work. Recognized by her friends for her sense of style, Ms. Toni Models, Collaborates, Mentors, Studied with, Trained with, along side some amazing people in the Entertainment Industry. 

She has this year alone; been asked to write scripts for huge household names; styled Models for Photographers, been apart of, in, and coordinated Music Videos, she currently is working on her BIO, helping a few others with their BIO's, still edits Resumes from her HR background, holds Business Meetings, Coordinates, Promotes, and simply with her writing with music videos and movies such as "short film a shadow by the lake" which went full feature; she is a force to reckoned with and I would keep my eye on her for upcoming "THINGS TO COME" 

She personally is helping a young man at the age of 20 get his clothing line out and a women with her jewelry line getting noticed. When asked why? She simply said: "I would have loved to have one person step in and help me as a teen and all I want in return is a simple THANK YOU one day." Now this is a women after my own heart.

Director: Lynn 

How long have you been modeling?

The first time was my early tween years. I made looks, faces & gave them beautiful eyes, it was known that one day I would and could be an amazing writer; however needless to the concept that LEOS are all vein or into themselves, I truly am shy when it comes to "ME". Most people don't realize that beauty is very diverse and comes in all forms. Even the form that I hold.

How did you begin and what are your goals as a model?

I wish it was as easy to become a Model as I see it being these days; my parents didn't have much money so I actually started and had to put my dreams on hold many times through out the years. My goals as a model are to create beautiful work with whomever I am working with. I'm not trying to heavily pursue a career in modeling; I honestly have more of a passion for writing; helping create beautiful art and have been styling many models, photo-shoots and workshops.           

Describe your style.

I believe my style is very diverse. My closet is a dress up closet. Each day I decide what kind I look I want to go for, either it be business casual-professional or my favorites hippie as my Son would say or grunge, preppy, etc.

What was your opinion of modeling before and is it different now? if so, how?

Before I started to model it didn't seem like it was “The practice of airbrushing models, whether to make them look bigger and bustier or smaller and thinner, reflects poorly on the fashion industry. These techniques are all about creating an illusion and distorting reality,” I believe “It sets a bad example for women watching these celebrities because now they are vulnerable to comparing themselves to highly manipulated photo art, not a real photo of a real person. Though the photos aren’t real, they have a real and tangible negative effect on women who, bombarded by these images, are led to feel they aren’t meeting up to the standards of beauty. ”I find that creating art with the human form is beautiful. Why be ashamed of your own anatomy? I think the human structure is beautiful and should be celebrated; however you'll find that the biggest critics are your own family and so-called friends.

Where do you like to shop and who are your favorite designers?

My favorite designers carry Vintage. Most of the clothes that I have consist of it! It's really expensive to buy at full price- so I find deals or go to thrift shops and to be honest I can spend hours in the thrift stores.

If you could model for any designer, who would it be?

I don't really have a favorite designer. I'm not Ito following the top trends and serif what's "hot" next. If I see something that resonates with my spirit or simply is colorful and that I feel will brighten my day, I get that excited happy feeling.

What is your dream now that you've got this far?

“I don’t want to be a supermodel; I want to be a role model.” “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”

Amazing truthful quotes

Quotes on life

Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends. Truly ~ M

“Give it a try.” whispered the heart.”

“It’s impossible.” said pride.
“It’s risky.” said experience.
“It’s pointless.” said reason.
“Give it a try.” whispered the heart.”
Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying whether they’ll give anything back. Or if they’re gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn’t something that happens to you. Maybe it’s something you have to choose.

And, so while this is completely against my beliefs, I’m gonna let myself fall in love with you, even though guys always seem to hurt me, I guess I have to take that chance, I mean if I didn’t, I would probably just give up on love altogether, and that has to be the saddest thing ever, so here I go again, I’m just praying this time, my heart won’t end up breaking all over again. But i know it’ll be worth it.

If God doesn’t give you what you want, it isn’t what you need.

If God doesn’t give you what you want, it isn’t what you need.
When God takes something away from your grasp, He is not punishing you but merely emptying your hand to receive something better. 
There are some things in life that don’t go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can’t dwell on these because you’ll miss out on other opportunities. Don’t give up one something just because you don’t think things will work, you won’t know unless you give it a try. But don’t hold onto something that left a long time ago, because sooner or later you’ll realize some things just aren’t meant to be.

Life really is.....

You will find as you look back upon your life
that the moments when you have really lived,
are the moments when you have done things
in a spirit of love.

Knowing myself.....

Although it is embarrassing and painful, it is very healing to stop hiding from yourself. It is healing to know all the ways that you’re sneaky, all the ways that you hide out, all the ways that you shut down, deny, close off, criticize people, all your weird little ways. You can know all of that with some sense of humor and kindness. By knowing yourself, you’re coming to know humanness altogether. We are all up against these things. We are all in this together.

Sweet Simplicity

Take time to notice all the usually unnoticed, simple things in life. Delight in the never-ending hope that's available every day!

A fiery sunset, tiny pansies by the wayside, the sound of raindrops tapping on the roof- what extraordinary delight we find in the simple wonders of life! With wide eyes and full hearts, we may cherish what others often miss.

Past post I put on Facebook...

Sometimes in life it's easy to forget to remain and stay happy; especially when your doing everything right and everything comes crashing down. Remember God knows and sees you, he doesn't forget anything. :)

“Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical.”

Thank you God and Jesus for all the Blessings you have given me yesterday, today and for all of my tomorrows.

Want change? read a BIBLE, go to CHURCH, do an OUTREACH, get filled with the HOLY SPIRIT, and fall madly in love WITH GOD. You'll never be the same again.

Sometimes people aren't who they seem to be & sometimes people are so much more than you originally thought. :D

Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude :D

I love having people in my life who can make me laugh when i did not even feel like smiling! I'm so thankful that I have some inspirational; comedian; driven; beautiful inside and out friends and family in my life! Truly Blessed to have you! I appreciate you all & if I haven't told you lately; I LOVE YOU :)

Only God can lead you to the Sunshine and the rainbow after every storm.. Remember there is a Hand that is reaching for yours It's up to you to grab hold of it

"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:16

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

Only God can lead you to the Sunshine and the rainbow after every storm.. Remember there is a Hand that is reaching for yours It's up to you to grab hold of it :D

All this camping talk has me reminiscing of all the fun times! I say we think about next year now and get some camp sites!!! I want to do our annual all girls camping for sure! We should plan a few family trips as well! :D

Throw back the shoulders, let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself...Nothing is impossible! (I like this)

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life

You're riding in the car. A song comes on the radio that makes you think of me. What's the song? Make this your status and see the results. :)

I choose to surround herself with people who make her smile, laugh, and who accept her for who is is, and for that, I thank you, :)

Good morning beautiful world. Good morning beautiful people. Today is gonna be a great day. : )

When I think of the ocean's width and depth, I stand in awe because I know God's love for me is so much more wider and so much more deeper. It's unmeasurable!

Forgiveness is never easy, but it is always necessary... When we forgive, we keep our Minds full of Peace, our Hearts full of Love and our Souls full of Joy.

I could just cry tears of joy and I'm one of the proudest MOMS! My son won his 2nd fight as well and did so awesome!!!

Every morning take a good look at yourself in the mirror and say " I am going to have a great day! Yes I can do it, and I will let nobody steal my joy!

The journey is just as important as the destination :)

Everyone is independent in their own beliefs and ideas about things, so never expect a person to always see things your way.

Beauty is on the inside & not the outside. If you are going to judge, judge me by my heart & not by my skin. Your skin ages but your heart stays beautiful.

There are a lot of ways that you can start your day, but the most important way is with prayer.

Be a hand that reaches out. Be a smile for those who have no reason to smile. Be a light for those who live in darkness. Show them what it means to truly love

If we do not speak it or live it, then others cannot see or hear it! Matthew 5:16 In the same way, let your light shine before men ...

"Keep your face always toward


the sunshine, and

the shadows will fall behind you."

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
when 24 Hours in a day is not enough,

remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A  professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous “yes.”

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

“Now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things – family, health, friends, and favorite passions – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.” “The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.” “The sand is everything else – the small stuff.”

“If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued,
“there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.”
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with family and friends. Take time to get medical checkups. Spend time out in nature. Pursue your favorite passions. Laugh. There will always be time to clean the house, fix the disposal, mow the lawn, and wash the car.

“Take care of the golf balls first – the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
“I’m glad you asked.” “It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.”

Please share this with other “Golf Balls.”



I just did…!

Sometimes you will break down and sometimes you will cry but just remember that it's not a sign of weakness, it's a sign that you've been strong for too long

Forgiveness is never easy, but it is always necessary... When we forgive, we keep our Minds full of Peace, our Hearts full of Love and our Souls full of Joy.

Smiling-Crying-Smile

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying-however I pray that my family will smile as I don't want to see the ones I love cry.

FIRST!

In life we all celebrate our first; first words; 1st birthdays; first just about everything! However it's the in between that you have to remember not to forget! Today reminded me of our families first with out; time can tend to make you forget; so with tears of happiness of a great weekend & tears of sadness to hear my Grandma say she woke up & cried as she woke up on her Mothers Day with out my Grandpa (her first) I will pray that my family makes it a point to remember the in betweens.

-Daily Writing