The ache in my heart

Who was i?
Was i just another memory to forget?….
Though I know I’m just a memory
like the end to one of your stories
but to me you are the one i love
I love until the end…

So I come before you to ask you;
why.... why do these things happen? 
Why must I understand and be ok?

Shall I say why should I be forgiving? 

Why should I be understanding?

Shall I feel walked all over and allow 
this feeling to take me over?

You gave your only Son for our sin
and I am trying to be understanding 
to the fact that this isn't your doing...

I am having a hard time wondering how 
I will explain what I know to someone 
else when I don't know how to explain 
it to myself. 

You can know something but dis-regard 
it in a moment when it makes your heart burn....
I feel as though my Soul has been taken from 
me... I feel as though my body is not my own...

I feel as though my life belongs to something
someone... else not of good but of evil as I 
don't get how something so bad can happen...

Please help me get some understanding...

I need understanding ...

I want a new life a new way a new view a 
new anything so I don't feel or have to feel
what I feel...

If I've been through it all and then I have to 
 face my worse fear ... I just want to ...
want to disapear as though I never existed at 
all!

I pray for strength I pray for understanding
I pray for the heart of yours... I pray for a 
day of happiness to stay... there must be a way.

Just come to me in my dreams so I can 
understand this land that I am to see one day...

I am going to lay down and try not to frown 
I am going to lay down and try not to drown. 

I want to believe in a better way a much 
better day and life of love and beauty 
a life of no hurt no dirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need so much right now ....

I never need anything but I know 
that right now I need you! I need you
but more then that I want you!

I want my faith to overcome my 
mind and my soul ... let's roll 
can we? Can I be selfish and 
ask for you to come to me above
all else before anyone before I 
walk away? I can't cry...

My eyes are becoming dry...

My heart hurts....

Dear God ... i need u... >m

“My mother sat me down and said, ...you are beautiful to me but must know that you are beautiful for yourself. You should also be aware that true beauty is in the eye of the beholder, which means that how beautiful you are to other people is always going to be subjective to who is looking at you at that time, and since you will always be looking at yourself first, you should find your own beauty and feel good about who you are.” She went on to tell me that I needed to take the time to identify those things that I found to be beautiful about myself but also celebrate what I thought was weird or unusual because those were the special things that God had given to me that made me different from everybody else.” Years Later I'm thankful to my mother for making me feel beautiful when I did not; I can't believe the older I get the more Beautiful I feel, I love all my weird ways! I love all my strange ways! I love all that is inside me. Thank you Mom! i love u =)
Most of all I'm thankful for my Mom she is such an amazing women & to be told I look more like her now is the biggest compliment

"A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take." Happy Birthday to the women that has been the biggest influence in my life-the most beautiful women I know- My mom-Happy Birthday :D

"A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take." Happy Birthday to the women that has been the biggest influence in my life-the most beautiful women I know- My mom-Happy Birthday :D