Listen!

Do you remember being a teenager?

I do but I don't remember it being so hard.

My son feels and feels deeply. We went from you don't listen to you don't understand me to I love you.

My heart aches because I wish I could show him it will be alright. Everything will be ok. One day this stuff wont matter much.

All I can do is say and let him know that his feelings matter! All I can say is never feel they don't! All I can say is won't always feel like this.
He is the most handsome teenager ever! He is so smart and amazing. I just ache thinking he feels anything less.

I wasn't made for this! For not fixing something! Nope I wasn't wired that way! So what in the world do I do or say???????

I'm able to make thousands of people feel inspired and happy and tonight I found myself searching for words. Yes me searching for words.

I'd give anything to hold his hand again (1-3) and help him jump over cracks as he laughs soooooo loud. I miss them days. When he truly had no worrys.

It takes time to know what lifes about and all I can do is listen to my heart and pray about it.

I found myself saying all that matters is God.... if you have and believe in God he will guide you, I promise you that much!

My son told me he was sorry; I told him it's ok everyone is allowed to get upset once in awhile however there is a way to express it. (He was upset because when he was talking to me before this about his feelings he was cursing and I said "You do not talk to your mom like that. You don't use those words." Well I know he really was trying to get something off his chest but I had to stop him after he said a couple things. I want to listen but I also have to make sure he understands RESPECT....

He didn't want to talk to me anymore... I didn't leave him alone. He begged me to leave him alone; I finally said ok I will go be sad because your upset and I will go. I was in my room he came and wanted to then say Mom please come talk to me. He told me he was sorry for getting upset that I didn't let him finish and that he loved me.

We then had our long two hour talk outside in the freezing cold at 2am in the morning.

I'm thankful I can listen! I'm thankful because it means he is talking to me! -_-

He thinks so much! He really really feels deeply about life. I would think that as much as I think and feel I would know exactly what to say. . . . however I didn't know what to say or what not to say....

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! I'M THANKFUL! HE SAYS MOM I KNOW YOU LOVE ME-

Listen.....sometimes you just need to listen.