Ever feel like you see your life

I am watching Parenthood right now (thank goodness for TIVO-recorded television) it's late and I slept for a few hours earlier just exhausted from thinking. So I have been watching Parenthood and it's a pretty good show. However the show on right now reminds me a bit of the relationship with my life. I see myself as Lauren Graham who plays ... Sarah Braverman .....how she feels uncomfortable trying to talk to her brother, not being able to really come around because of Monica Potter who plays ... Kristina Braverman the brother's wife. The brother can't be there for the sister's son because the wife says what about our family.... it's just interresting how people are; how people don't see how much there tiny, little, or big actions can make another human feel.
When my brother was little I was the one he would run to when he was scared or needed something. I'm still the one that is there when something is needed, but it hurts- this non-communication; whatever; who ever; is the reason. How do you not miss our older sister so much? I believe it's crazy that my niece and nephew can feel and know how much I love them; especially since I never see them as much as I want. I've seen my friends kids more then my niece and nephew. I believe I see my nieces and nephews out of town more as well. I pray that when my son gets older he never forgets about his family for a relationship. I pray that my son doesn't feel abandonment issues because his uncle isn't there like when he was a baby. I remember our family being close, despite the flaws of our family, we knew and seen our aunts, uncles, cousins etc.  Here I am going on-this show is just so close to home.