Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Garcia Family Reunion plans ALMOST deflate...

Sandi posted something about me making our group secret... and it had to do with some of the comments and post some family felt the need to post or say....

Well sadly SECRET didn't or wouldn't have done anything! I made the group in hopes that everyone could think of ideas and post those.. and if they wanna share family PHOTOS or INVITES that is fine however I would suggest everyone make a immediate family one... I have NO IDEA what EVERYONE'S so CALLED issues or problems ARE! I know that everyone should be embarrassed to FB any of it. I made it SECRET so NONE of my friends would see some of the post being put up.

However for the FAMILY that doesn't get involved in that LETS not SCARE them off into dis-owning their family. 

I wish I could post and not get comments. As I've seen over and over the stuff FAMILY post and responds to via private FB or on each others. I wont lie I've done it once or twice in a moment of my feelings being hurt but I decided it's not the RIGHT nor GROWN up thing to do.

If no one thinks we can pull this off or do something like this - FEEL FREE TO SAY SO.

Let me be REAL HONEST... I am SO SAD... a few years ago me and Auntie Marylou were trying to plan this! We were so excited and had so many great ideas! After her daughter passed away; Auntie was SO SAD, we said we would put it off for awhile. I love Auntie Marylou so much! She not one time has forgot my son and when she couldn't make it, she would mail him a gift for his Birthday.

Life isn't about gifts or this and that. Life is about who is THERE WHEN IT COUNTS. I have 4 FAMILIES!! Three! If I get married again one day I will have 5.

Do you know how hard it is? To make EVERYONE HAPPY???? I yet to spend a HOLIDAY like Thanksgiving or Christmas with my Sisters and other Brother from my Biological side of my family. (That's one) I have my mom's side (2) I have my DADS side my DAD that by all rights is my BLOOD father for those whom think something different. He raised me and that family is who I grew up with and only knew for most of my life and that makes (3) I have the positive people in my life people I attend Church with and Bible Study that makes (4) if I get married again... his family will be my family as well and another person to spend time with. which would make (5) However MIND YOU.... God he is my number one in life!!!!

This is why when people want to have the people they avoid or stay away from I let my heart be guided by ME... I have cousins that EVERYONE wants to put down and talk about but let me say this: IF I CALLED THAT/THOSE people they would give me whatever I may need if they HAD IT... (I don't ask anyone for anything) do you know how comforting that is? I have the RELIGIOUS family... man these ones... are harder on everyone then I think God will be one day.

I love & believe and enjoy God in my life, I don't judge anyone who feels other ways. I believe that my kindness could infect someone and possibly lead them to God, or if I may just be the only person in there life that they allow the talk of God or the Bible so why in the world would I cut them out of my life?

I have been so SAD about Auntie... I can't imagine loosing memory one day even the moments I have lost already trying to shut out the AWFUL that happen to me as child pains me since I had to choose to forget the GOOD as well. I truly can barely remember before age 11... that is SO SAD! So with all of that this year.. I thought to myself... at least I can try to do as we wanted to do for Grandpa Ray or in his honor.

FAMILY- I'd love nothing more then everyone to DO THEM... SAY WHAT THEY WANT to (that person) in person IF IT IS NEEDED or YOU FEEL it's needed. However for someone like me..  I don't wanna know or hear. I lost 6 very close family members last year! I'm in the process of loosing the LAST GRANDFATHER... and the one I SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH in my life RIGHT NOW... so all this other stuff... it's un needed. *Sigh (if you didn't know anything Thank God! it's pointless) really that person you dis-like hate or can't stand and even worse think your better then.. if I called you RIGHT NOW! and said they DIED .... would you BE HAPPY? or would you actually CRY or FEEL SAD? I love you ALL! From the ones I've met, haven't met yet, the ones I use to spend every day with, see once a year, hear from via phone once in awhile, the ones only I hear from with Christmas Cards, the ones that make me LAUGH with the Silly things they say on FB and frankly all of you!

I don't like when people talk about me but God tells me it doesn't define me so I hurt but choose to let it be. You'll find yourself much happier this way. I love you! Well I'm babysitting and this little girl... man just looking at her there is no way I couldn't be happy and smile... FIND your JOY.. I love seeing all your kids.. and don't like thinking about deactivating FB as I know for some of us this is the only way we can be connected. Have a Blessed Day!!! (Sandi this is for everyone but seeing your post made me stop thinking about it and I decided to post it and thank you for always having a open home to me!)

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