APRIL'S MESSAGE TO ME IN PURPLE - WHAT I HAD TO SAY IN BLACK...

THANK YOU SO MUCH for everything you did at the baptism, I guess as you get older you REALLY learn to step back and look at your life and appreciate certain people,they say friends are the family you choose...Your first family is your blood family and you'll always be true to that. That means something. But there’s another family and that’s the kind you go out and find. Maybe even by accident sometimes. And they’re as much blood as your first family. Maybe more so, because they don’t have to look out for you and they don’t have to love you.... They choose to. that's how I feel about you Marsalia,you are so important to me we have grown up together,been their for each other in every situation life has given us,you are one of my sisters! When I told you to come over to hang out with me and get our make up done the morning of the baptism super early ,and then I left you alone at the house to get the kids ready while I set up the reception ,only a sister would do that,or hold my kids church instead of relaxing ,only a sister would do that,making my kids feel so special, and being their for them especially Makayla who adores you,and your always sending her cards and things so thoughtful letting her know your always their for her , only a sister would that , being with my family and saying how wonderful it is and not picking everyone apart or gossiping about people ,only a sister would do that ,editing pictures before you post them so everyone else looks perfect ,only a sister would do,looking at me at my worst and being so positive and sportive and not judging me, is only something a sister would do,I can be my self around you ,and talk to you about anything,I dont have to care about what I look like,or whats going on!I love you so much and really have come to appreciate how wonderful and amazing you are, their only a few friends that are like jewels in this world , that you find and that you hold on to through your whole life the other ones are like grains of sand you have them in your hand for awhile but then they slip through your fingers,their just their temporary to learn from or teach something too,you are one of the jewels I will hold on to , I love you so much, thank you so much for EVERYTHING! =)

APRIL~Women you didn't tell me I would need a box of Kleenex to read what you had to say... but you know I appreciate the laughs the moments the memories over the years.. you were so right by everything you said about friendship... as far as some people being around always or just simply showing up one day and always being in your life. The slipping through your fingers ... I just felt that in my heart because I've had people slip through mine... it hurts it is like a break up and your heart.... sometimes takes so long to heal. You've always been so unselfish thinking of others in the way not many people do. I could probably write a book about how special you are. The amazing thing is the Beauty you have inside you also have on the outside... your so gorgeous and a great wife mother and girl you are the Sister I always wanted to have in my life! I love your family as my own and you are so special for sharing them with me! Most people don't care about anyone but themselves and your not like that! I only have one regret.. and that is THAT WE DIDN'T MEET the day I was born so I missed out on the play dates with each other and teenage boy crushes =) However I feel like I see you in each of your Children and when Brooklyn was in the hospital my heart was breaking for you... I love you so much... I love seeing you happy and thank you for being apart of my life!