I can't stand being tired! I feel lazy, feel like I'm wasting life and time away! It truly bites! I've been on the go for awhile now, my thoughts, my body, my words, my visions.....
My thoughts keep racing, this is why I believe I have a hard time sleeping!
My body, constantly driving here and there, up and about, wants to sit down but wont.
My words, sometimes I talk so much to myself though! I find lately for the first time in my life, I don't talk about things like I use too, before you would know about what I was doing probably like the news knows about the weather. Now I talk to two people, and we don't have time to talk all the time so I still don't get to talk to anyone about everything. I just don't care to share it anymore with anyone, because I've just been let down.
So I tried to take a walk with God, the other night, it didn't work!!! I think I was too like sure, he's going to talk back? He talks to me by dreams seeing things and so fourth, however I've never actually heard his voice, say Marsalia this or that, I may have had a heart attack, however because I don't hear a voice, when I talk to him, and I see a answer or what I believe to be one, or I visualize something is that him talking too me???
So lately I try to just talk little about myself or what is going on, try to remain positive, like the roof could be falling in and I wouldn't mention it.... now that's strange for someone like myself being a LEO and so I don't know the word. However I believe the world has done it's damage on my trust of people and there alternative motives. I find that most people say they want you happy but they don't.
I find that I am too believe God will fix everything but I still battle with this thought.
I sound more positive then I am!
I do believe we can trick ourselves into feeling a particular way.
My visions, are confusing me!
I am not sure if I should move here or there but hear more of here and there at times.
Why can't I have a EASY button?
My thoughts keep racing, this is why I believe I have a hard time sleeping!
My body, constantly driving here and there, up and about, wants to sit down but wont.
My words, sometimes I talk so much to myself though! I find lately for the first time in my life, I don't talk about things like I use too, before you would know about what I was doing probably like the news knows about the weather. Now I talk to two people, and we don't have time to talk all the time so I still don't get to talk to anyone about everything. I just don't care to share it anymore with anyone, because I've just been let down.
So I tried to take a walk with God, the other night, it didn't work!!! I think I was too like sure, he's going to talk back? He talks to me by dreams seeing things and so fourth, however I've never actually heard his voice, say Marsalia this or that, I may have had a heart attack, however because I don't hear a voice, when I talk to him, and I see a answer or what I believe to be one, or I visualize something is that him talking too me???
So lately I try to just talk little about myself or what is going on, try to remain positive, like the roof could be falling in and I wouldn't mention it.... now that's strange for someone like myself being a LEO and so I don't know the word. However I believe the world has done it's damage on my trust of people and there alternative motives. I find that most people say they want you happy but they don't.
I find that I am too believe God will fix everything but I still battle with this thought.
I sound more positive then I am!
I do believe we can trick ourselves into feeling a particular way.
My visions, are confusing me!
I am not sure if I should move here or there but hear more of here and there at times.
Why can't I have a EASY button?
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